Y'ello everyone, I haven't done one of these rambleings of mine for ages now and its high time I did if you ask me! *cheesy grin*

My art is more like fart at the moment to be honest, so if you're wondering why I haven't upload anything in aaaagggeeesss then thats my excuse and I'm sticking to it. . . whatever it was, bah I have a memory like a sieve!

The first few weeks of being back at college is finally over and frankly I'm dog tired. The work load has got heavier and I think I've got stupider, or maybe I just need to settle down again, also my artistic skill has become an artistic nil, honestly, I just can't think of anything to draw or paint and whenever I try, it just comes out rubbish, I don't know what's gotten into me, I feel artistically drained. And an all time low in confidence doesn't help either. Everyone in my art class is amazing and I'm so rubbish, my drawing and stuff is just BLEH!! That's the only way I can explain it. I haven't drawn any manga people in aggggeeesss and today I tried and it was so bad I don't even want to think about it. Also my phone has sortof died, like some of the buttons don't work so texting is frankly impossible, it has a big crack in the screen and the back keeps falling off!

HA anyway stuff and fluff, I dislike college more and more, everyone is so effected and attention seeking, people always judge you on appearance and nothing more. . . I didn't know the world was so shallow!!! The only topics people like to talk about in detail is sex, drugs and rock and roll, I mean, there's more to life then that people!! Comeon!! Teenagers nowadays just seem to be in such a rush to grow up and have children and all this stuff and they try to act mature and it makes then so immature because of it. I don't know why people should try to grow up like that! You're only young once, make it worth while thats what I say! I still play around and jump about, and get excited over the toy baskets in charity shops and why shouldn't I? I'm a three year old trapped in a 17 year old's body! which reminds me, I could learn to drive now If I wanted to!! its so weird thinking that!!

In four days me and my boyfriend will have been together for 11 months!! That's almost a year and it seams to have gone so fast, and I can still remember when we first started going out like it was yesterday! *sigh* We're always together, in all our breaks and stuff, some people might think thats a bad thing but we just get on together so well and I feel so much more relaxed when he's next to me. Some how I freeze up in public when I'm on my own, it's just so hard for me to talk to anyone or anything, I'm so shy and I hate it but I can't change it no matter how I try!

Strictly come dancing!!! I always love watching that! It makes me dance around the room like some three year old with ants in their pants or something!! weeeelll maybe not quite like that but something similar!! I've always wanted to learn to ballroom dance and latin dance I've just never had the confidence!

On which note I shall leave you because I want beddie-byes, I hope that didn't bore you toooo much.

Night yal

Rach xxx

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